Post by kenosis on Jul 29, 2003 1:02:54 GMT -5
Matthew 15:18-20
Those things which proceed out of the mouth come forth from the heart; and they defile the man. For out of the heart proceed evil thoughts, murders, adulteries, fornications, thefts, false witness, blasphemies: These are the things which defile a man: but to eat with unwashen hands defileth not a man.
I said to the Lord: “But I never felt any of those awful things in my heart.”
In prayer, God revealed HIS Word and HIS way to me. Then, He gave me a choice.
He is either the supreme authority on the human heart or He is not.
I was prepared to trust the penetration of his Word into my heart... I no longer wanted to trust my “innocent ignorance” when thinking such as my statement to God “But I never felt any of those awful things in my heart.”
When I took an honest look at myself (and put to rest my “innocent ignorance”), I had a rude awakening to see that what Jesus Christ said is true. When I was open and completely exposed before God, I was appalled at the possibilities of wrong within me.
I chose that day (August 19, 1986) to hand my LIFE over to the redemptive power in Jesus Christ. I went to Christ for judgment - to help me with the things that were within my heart - to bring them to light. That I might see them, ask for forgiveness, and repent of them and be judged of them and have them put ‘under the blood of the cross’; as God’s Word says:
1 Timothy 5:24 Some men's sins are open beforehand, going before to judgment; and some men they follow after.
He continues to bring things to light for me to face them - then deal with them as God would have me to. God in His infinite wisdom did not show me all of my sin at one time - but brings each to light that I might be able to see and make changes toward His righteousness...by learning and exhibiting the fruits of His Spirit within me.
Which brings me to the heart of the matter with this thread:
You posted as mod on a thread I was posting on. You chose to mediate and try to end things on a better note. Hindsight shows me that you posted with honesty and integrity - but I was hurting over the matter and did not “receive” your words at the time.
Then the entire thread got out of hand and many things were said and done.
I would like to not only apologize for my part, but also I feel that I need to ask for your forgiveness. I believe that saying “I’m sorry” and “asking forgiveness” are two different things.
I am sorry - with a Godly sorrow. But I also wish to ask for your forgiveness. Will you please forgive me?
I was wrong in my dealings with you and I believe real healing can begin with true repentance on my part and forgiveness on your part.
You are a very fine person and will make an excellent mod. Thank you for taking the time to come and read my plea.
Your sister in Christ, Vada[/color]
